macam macam ter

Terkejut..
Terkedu..
Tersentak..dan macam-macam ter lagi lah yang keluar pagi tadi.

My previous entry was not meant either to draw any attention from other people or to ask sympathy from others. If that so, why should I have to publish it on the net, in this blog..? Well, actually I am totally blank, and don't know what to do anymore. Sesak dah otak aku time tu..! That's why I wrote the entry. It's all up to people's that read the entry whether to feel sympathy, kesian ke, nak kutuk ke atau nak apa-apa je lah. As long as no one knows my identity, I guess it's OK though.

However, to my surprise, I've got an email this morning. Someone from somewhere, dengan ikhlasnya nak hulurkan bantuan. I am speechless. Rupanya masih ada insan yang berhati mulia kat luar sana. Even though we never met, never known each other and not even have any family relationship, dia sanggup nak hulurkan bantuan. Terharu kejap aku..This make me thinking, why do stranger can offer to help me instead of people that knows me for ages.? I guess if I ask for their help, mesti dah habis sekampung dicanangnya cerita tu.Tak pun berbakul-bakul sindiran dan cakap-cakap belakang yang timbul...huh..I don't know what to say and would like to send my thankful to Allah yang menemukan aku dengan insan sebaik ni di alam cyber ni.

To kak iina, thanks a lot because wants to help me even though we never met each other. What makes you believe me so much till you sincerely want to help me, sis.? Bukan saya tak sudi terima bantuan akak, tapi saya tak nak ambil kesempatan atas kemuliaan hati akak. Besides, I've already find ways to solve the problem by myself. Heh..kot terdesak ke nanti, saya email lah akak eh.

At lunch break, I have chit chat with my office mate. A lot of topics comes out, from office gossip till to general issues. Fuh, so much story eh..? However, I only interested in a story. Its about our life in this world. While discussing the issues, it makes me so insaf. Banyaknya ilmu aku yang masih kurang. I'm also feels sorry to those who likes to see other people bergaduh and dipandang serong oleh orang lain. Apa yang kau dapat bila bercerita hal orang behind their back.? Do you really know the truth about them..? Who are we to judge other people action and attitude..? Agama pun tak pernah kata orang ni jahat orang tu baik. We are all human being yang maksum. Tak akan lari dari kesilapan dan kesalahan. Haih..

And, after office hour today, suddenly I'm crying again while driving. I hope God will forgive all my sins if whatever happens lately are from my mistake and my wrongly action towards other people around me. I do not care what others think about me anymore. Talk whatever you wanna talk, gossip whatever you wanna gossip. As long as I know what I am doing and Tuhan tahu niat aku.