I'm not updating this blog for few days again..I'm not busy and yet, I am still here in this country. There's a lot of words and sentence playing in my mind everyday, every hour, every minutes. Senang cerita, setiap masa lah..! One of it, is about professionalism. All this while, I thought that I am professional enough to segregate between work and personal problem. However I am not...
Damn..!
I thought that I am able to differentiate it and do not mix the two of it in my life. Instead, I am rather mix it up and confuse when it's comes to make a decision, especially when it involving my friendship with my colleague.
I am sure that everyone aware and love office gossip. Am I right..? Yeah..I love it too, but not too much ler..Hanya di angin lalu je. Masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri. That's what I mean in my previous entry, about sitting in between of 2 different kind of group. Sometimes these people make me so scared though. Afraid that I can become the target someday if I miss my step again.
Sometimes I wonder, are these people do not feel guilty when they talk about other people, that you're not really know the truth about them and the stories you're talking about.?What do you get by telling the stories all over the office.? Do you get extra money or bonus at the end of year..?
Believe me that most of kaki gosip and kaki sibuk hal orang are woman..!
I am not saying that I am good and I do not talk behind other people's back. I do it too. In fact, sometimes I feel excited about it and most of the time, I'm feeling guilty. I'm pity of the people that being the target of gossip. They do not interfere my life and sometimes I do not know them at all, but why I am too concern to know every single thing that happen to them and their personal life..? Lantak dia lah nak buat apa. Nak pakai kereta besar ke, nak beli rumah baru, nak pakai baju mahal-mahal ke, nak apa ke, dan macam-macam lagi lah. Do they ask for my money..?No they dont..! So for what reason I'm enjoying listen to their story from other people..? Huh..
And for what reason I'm blogging about all these matters right now..? Urghh..!
I'm actually diverting my mind from keep memorize something that I should not memorize again. It's hurting me. It's spoil my mood and my emotion again. I do a lot of activities last week, but I still do not feel happy. I'm not excited on whatever I am doing. I do lepaking, watch movie and meeting some friends, but I still remembering that one. Something that hard to forget and impossible to be erased. I wonder why it is so hard to forget..! I do know that no one give a damn about me anymore. No one cares what I'm facing right now. I mean someone that close to me. Or do they actually really care..? I hate feeling sad and frustrated..!!!
Huh...my idea are gone already. Don't know what I'm trying to blog about.
Damn..!
I thought that I am able to differentiate it and do not mix the two of it in my life. Instead, I am rather mix it up and confuse when it's comes to make a decision, especially when it involving my friendship with my colleague.
I am sure that everyone aware and love office gossip. Am I right..? Yeah..I love it too, but not too much ler..Hanya di angin lalu je. Masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri. That's what I mean in my previous entry, about sitting in between of 2 different kind of group. Sometimes these people make me so scared though. Afraid that I can become the target someday if I miss my step again.
Sometimes I wonder, are these people do not feel guilty when they talk about other people, that you're not really know the truth about them and the stories you're talking about.?What do you get by telling the stories all over the office.? Do you get extra money or bonus at the end of year..?
Believe me that most of kaki gosip and kaki sibuk hal orang are woman..!
I am not saying that I am good and I do not talk behind other people's back. I do it too. In fact, sometimes I feel excited about it and most of the time, I'm feeling guilty. I'm pity of the people that being the target of gossip. They do not interfere my life and sometimes I do not know them at all, but why I am too concern to know every single thing that happen to them and their personal life..? Lantak dia lah nak buat apa. Nak pakai kereta besar ke, nak beli rumah baru, nak pakai baju mahal-mahal ke, nak apa ke, dan macam-macam lagi lah. Do they ask for my money..?No they dont..! So for what reason I'm enjoying listen to their story from other people..? Huh..
And for what reason I'm blogging about all these matters right now..? Urghh..!
I'm actually diverting my mind from keep memorize something that I should not memorize again. It's hurting me. It's spoil my mood and my emotion again. I do a lot of activities last week, but I still do not feel happy. I'm not excited on whatever I am doing. I do lepaking, watch movie and meeting some friends, but I still remembering that one. Something that hard to forget and impossible to be erased. I wonder why it is so hard to forget..! I do know that no one give a damn about me anymore. No one cares what I'm facing right now. I mean someone that close to me. Or do they actually really care..? I hate feeling sad and frustrated..!!!
Huh...my idea are gone already. Don't know what I'm trying to blog about.
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