Hari aku bermula dengan agak kurang enak hari ni. Tak tahu apehal, penyakit nak marah aku datang balik. Perasaan marah tu membuak-buak je. Semua benda buat aku sakit hati dan geram..! I've tried to get rid of it, but I just can't..! I hate being like this again, as it will boost up my blood pressure again.
I've tried to let things go with the flow. Malas nak take anything serious anymore. I mean, the small small things lah. But somehow, that small things become biggger each day. An annoying habits make me feel want to kill someone..! grrr....It's true that it is impossible to satisfiy all people around us, tapi janganlah sampai menyusahkan orang lain. Bangang..!
Another things that makes my life going bad everyday, are that something. I don't want to describe or give hint of it as I'm afraid it will hurt someone again. I don't know what to do anymore. Seriously I hate this situation though..! Something that I've always afraid off. I dont know what their feelings and I dont know what should I do. To go away from here is the best solution, I guess. But why I'm still here then..? That's why my pressures always up, as I've always think about that small small thing in life.
I've always wonder, is it true none of people around me understand my insecurity and my feelings..? Do none of them care to comfort me or to make me happy..? I'm not demand them to be always besides me, but I just ask for just once. Just once..try to make my day and try to make me happy with life.
I've tried hard to forget and try to live with the new life, but I just can't..! It makes me more sad and feels lonely though. However they end up seeing me as a sensitive person... So, how..? I'm not sensitive if people can make me laugh and accept me. I do not bother if I don't have nice body or nice looks if I can make other people laugh. It makes me happy when seing others happy. But why it is so hard to understand..?????
Don't get me wrong.
If you people seing me as trying to get sympathy with this blog entry, you're wrong. I just need accompany. I'm sick of being alone anymore. I just want to taste the beauty of life and this world. It's just that..
I do not mean, I am desperate to get married though, as I'm not ready for it yet. Accompany here, means a friend that I can share hobbies, having good time and always there when I'm feeling down. A friend that can make me forget about my sadness and can make me forget about my problems. That's all I need.
Is it difficult to fulfill...?
I know other peoples also have their own problems too, but why can we just share the problems or trying to have fun together to get rid off it.? I know my weakness, and I know my ability. So, I do not need symptahy or attention from others anymore as I am a big girl now. I just want to be fun and happy again..!!!
Is it hard..??
I've tried to let things go with the flow. Malas nak take anything serious anymore. I mean, the small small things lah. But somehow, that small things become biggger each day. An annoying habits make me feel want to kill someone..! grrr....It's true that it is impossible to satisfiy all people around us, tapi janganlah sampai menyusahkan orang lain. Bangang..!
Another things that makes my life going bad everyday, are that something. I don't want to describe or give hint of it as I'm afraid it will hurt someone again. I don't know what to do anymore. Seriously I hate this situation though..! Something that I've always afraid off. I dont know what their feelings and I dont know what should I do. To go away from here is the best solution, I guess. But why I'm still here then..? That's why my pressures always up, as I've always think about that small small thing in life.
I've always wonder, is it true none of people around me understand my insecurity and my feelings..? Do none of them care to comfort me or to make me happy..? I'm not demand them to be always besides me, but I just ask for just once. Just once..try to make my day and try to make me happy with life.
I've tried hard to forget and try to live with the new life, but I just can't..! It makes me more sad and feels lonely though. However they end up seeing me as a sensitive person... So, how..? I'm not sensitive if people can make me laugh and accept me. I do not bother if I don't have nice body or nice looks if I can make other people laugh. It makes me happy when seing others happy. But why it is so hard to understand..?????
Don't get me wrong.
If you people seing me as trying to get sympathy with this blog entry, you're wrong. I just need accompany. I'm sick of being alone anymore. I just want to taste the beauty of life and this world. It's just that..
I do not mean, I am desperate to get married though, as I'm not ready for it yet. Accompany here, means a friend that I can share hobbies, having good time and always there when I'm feeling down. A friend that can make me forget about my sadness and can make me forget about my problems. That's all I need.
Is it difficult to fulfill...?
I know other peoples also have their own problems too, but why can we just share the problems or trying to have fun together to get rid off it.? I know my weakness, and I know my ability. So, I do not need symptahy or attention from others anymore as I am a big girl now. I just want to be fun and happy again..!!!
Is it hard..??
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