death news

Another death news in my office this morning.

One of my office mate, died last night. Suffered from breast cancer. I did not know her so well, but I know her existing and I know she suffered on the disease long time ago. May Allah bless her soul and may she will be place with the good people there. Al-Fatihah to my office mate, Kak Rubi.

The death news today make me feel so thankful to Allah because I am still can smell the air for today and still can see my friends even tough we are not so close anymore. It also make me thankful with my life so far.

When I wake up today, I'd feel sad and asking myself, " sampai bila aku nak jalani rutin macam ni?". That time, I'm still on my bed. Then, I'm stand up and walk to the bathroom. I see my friend was ironing her cloth. Then I'm taking my bath. While taking my bath, I'm still thinking about my life. However, after finish taking my bath, I enter my room and look into the mirror, and say 

" Apalah aku ni, patutnya aku bersyukur sebab aku masih dapat lihat dunia dan dapat jalani rutin yang sama. Cuba bayangkan, tiba-tiba suatu hari kau buka mata, kau tengok diri kau terbaring kaku, dan sanak saudara semua sedang baca surah Yassin di keliling kau.." .

Then, I'd smile and siap-siap untuk ke pejabat.

While driving, I am thinking again. Jalan agak Ok sikit pagi tadi. Tak sibuk seperti biasa. I'm thinking " sampai bila aku nak hidup seorang diri, drive sorang-sorang ke pejabat, duduk sorang-sorang kat pejabat dan rumah, dan pendek kata semua benda aku buat seorang diri". Topik HotChat kat radio tadi pun macam menarik. Aku seorang pelajar yang skema ketika di sekolah dan bila dah dewasa ni lah baru aku nak jadi nakal dan breaking the rules..heh..! Sebab tu aku tak ada geng dan kawan rapat di zaman sekolah. Maka sebab itu lah aku selalu sorang-sorang sekarang ni, sebab kawan-kawan baru aku masih keep in touch dengan kawan-kawan sekolah mereka. Well..memang kawan-kawan lama seronok, sebab banyak kenangan manis dilalui bersama. Tiba-tiba saja aku rasa menyesal sebab tak having fun time sekolah dulu. 

However, ada juga sesetengah orang tu, still can create sweet memories with new friends. Still can having fun with new friends. Aku pun terfikir, kenapa aku tak jumpa dengan orang-orang itu..? 

Walau apapun, aku bersyukur dengan apa dan siapa yang Tuhan kurniakan untuk jadi kawan aku selama ni. Hopefully they are not thinking like other people think about me. As I am still remember her and I still love them like before.

badakbiru : nampak saja aku macam tak ada perasaan, but I have the feeling. Just ask me if you need help.