Its been a long silence from me here. The reason is, I am a bit busy and I think I am a bit happy. Heh..Bila happy, no idea to blog about. That is why most of my entry here macam ala-ala sedih je kan. Actually I am not always in sad mood, means yang selalu bersedih,jiwang,sentimental ke or yang sewaktu dengannya. Biasalah kan. Sometimes I feel happy and sometimes I am deeply sad. Nama lagi perempuan kan. Emotionally unstable...!
Sedar tak sedar, hari ni dah masuk 12 hari umat Islam berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan kan. How fast time fly. Alhamdulillah sepanjang itu, aku tak keseorangan lagi tahun ni. Thanks to all..! Em...kalau nak cerita pasal keseorangan or being alone,panjang lebar pula jadinya entri ni nanti. Besides, I don't want to feel lonely and too emotional towards life again. Dulu-dulu aku selalu rasa keseorangan dan disebabkan rasa itu juga kadang-kadang aku lakukan something unexpected that someone cannot think I will do...!Most of it is, something that I've never think of. I felt that I faced a lot of thing alone in this world. Actually, I am not alone. Aku je yang suka lebih-lebih. Adeh.apahal lah aku selalu lambat sedar..? Tak pasal-pasal dah jadi tua sebelum waktunya sebab selalu sedih-sedih.
Sebenarnya ramai yang selalu di samping aku. Its only me myself that always love to sit alone and layan perasaan dan macam-macam lagi. Kadang-kadang I am blaming others on whatever happen, but sometimes I was at the right side. Heh..
What makes me don't want to feel lonely again is because of a phrase I've read on the email forwarded by a friend.
Sedar tak sedar, hari ni dah masuk 12 hari umat Islam berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan kan. How fast time fly. Alhamdulillah sepanjang itu, aku tak keseorangan lagi tahun ni. Thanks to all..! Em...kalau nak cerita pasal keseorangan or being alone,panjang lebar pula jadinya entri ni nanti. Besides, I don't want to feel lonely and too emotional towards life again. Dulu-dulu aku selalu rasa keseorangan dan disebabkan rasa itu juga kadang-kadang aku lakukan something unexpected that someone cannot think I will do...!Most of it is, something that I've never think of. I felt that I faced a lot of thing alone in this world. Actually, I am not alone. Aku je yang suka lebih-lebih. Adeh.apahal lah aku selalu lambat sedar..? Tak pasal-pasal dah jadi tua sebelum waktunya sebab selalu sedih-sedih.
Sebenarnya ramai yang selalu di samping aku. Its only me myself that always love to sit alone and layan perasaan dan macam-macam lagi. Kadang-kadang I am blaming others on whatever happen, but sometimes I was at the right side. Heh..
What makes me don't want to feel lonely again is because of a phrase I've read on the email forwarded by a friend.
So, base on the image lah I've feel that I need not to feel lonely and alone anymore. Life is too short to waste on your sadness all the time. Hidup cuma sekali. Additionally, I found something precious for me right now. Its neither a person nor a thing, its actually inside my head. I admit that sometimes I feel it too, but I battle again it by myself to not give a chance to loneliness get into my life again. To be honest, sometimes I feel lonely too whenever I have to buka puasa sorang-sorang, but like it or not, I have to face it. Aku dah tak nak terlalu mengharap dan terlalu caring. That was my weakness. I care too much...!!! However, I bet you will really don' t like if I become stone heart though. Bila aku dah buat tak kisah, aku hanya akan pentingkan diri sendiri dan tak akan ambil kisah hal orang sekeliling termasuk famili. Haa..ambik kau..!!! That is why, I love to think about other people and care about them, as I love them as much as I love myself and my family. Namun, nampaknya I have to be more rational. No one will understand me and my attitude. Sometimes I wish I have an eyes on other people's eyes, so that I can see myself tru their eyes. Emm...but seriously I am frustrated and I don't want to be caring anymore. Enough is enough. If this situation is the best, so I have to face it. To be honest, I am regretted on whatever happen, but hey...that's life. Ada pasang surutnya. Besides, the world are temporary. Nothing is permanent here and all of living things will gone. Kasih sayang yang abadi hanyalah untuk DIA. Confirm tak akan kecewa lah...!! I've learn a lot from that crisis, but deep down in my heart, I always wish everything will be the same again.
All right....enough said about that. Fullstops...
Apa yang penting...everything OK and I am happy. Otak pun tak serabut sangat dah...weee....!
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