Retak menanti belah

Almost all of the relationship attach with me is like...retak menanti belah. 
Yang sebelah sana..
Yang sebelah sini...
Yang sedarah sedaging..dan
Yang tak sedarah sedaging pun..!


Emmm...tiba-tiba rasa sayu pula bila ingat tu, but what more that I can do. I've already do my best to safe all the silaturrahim. Yes I know...I should accept the facts, but sometimes the memory between us make me so sad. Aku tahu aku perlu redha, but for someone like me that hard to get close to other people, its like the end of the world..!!


It's sad though when you saw someone that is once so close and care for you, become stranger with you. Nothing much to talk, and nothing else to share. You feels guilty all the time. Rasa pelik bila nak minta tolong. Rasa serba salah nak bersembang. Dah tak ada kemesraan.


Keeping the mouth shut, maybe once the best solution. However, too long keeping the mouth shut will chase away all the love inside each other. At the end, the love has fade  away, and the relationship will gone with the wind.



Aku tak sombong.
Aku tak ego.
Aku bukan berlagak.
Aku bukan rasa selalu betul.
Aku bukan suka salahkan orang lain.
Aku bukan tak mengaku salah.
Aku bukan seorang yang baik.
Aku bukan nak memecah belahkan sesiapa.
Aku bukan nak putuskan silaturrahim orang lain.


Tapi orang-orang itu selalu rasa aku adalah semua yang kat atas tu. Tak seorang pun rasa aku yang sebaliknya.


Last night, I've found out something, that give me the idea to write an entry for today.  Tak payah ceritalah apa yang aku tahu semalam, but it is something that I am really afraid of for the whole of my life, but it's happening now.


What should I do...?????
I am afraid of this world.....!