something to realize

I'm notice something....

Lately, I'm spending most of my time with a person. I will spend my time with the person almost everyday and I'd realize that I'd put aside and ignore a lot of things. I guess I'm also ignoring some peoples too. Gosh...this is not good..!

The reason I'd spend my time with the person because it's makes me happy. It makes me forget about my problem either my personal issues or my work issues. The person always makes me laughing for all day long. I'd really enjoy and happy being beside the person. Even though I know I have ignoring a lot of thing and give full attention only to the person. It is not too much to say that right now, I'm only think to be beside the person almost everyday and I am feeling lost if we are apart. OMG...I am damn crazy..!

Each day, I'll woke up in the morning, go to work and I only will go back home late at night. Guess what? 

I will only see my house-mate only on the weekend if only I was at home. If not, I'm only will see them whenever necessary. Cruel huh..?or self fish maybe....

I don't even really care about what other people feels about that.

What's inside me right now is, I just want to be beside someone that makes me happy.That's all. I am really tired thinking about other people's feeling and ignoring my own feelings.I am damn tired you know...

Besides, it is useless for me trying to please others right now, as for them I am nobody except someone that they used to know in their past time.

I'm also realize that, the face that always in my heart are also fade away from me. It was replace by the person's face. The feeling towards the person that I care so much before also slowly gone from my heart. I feels nothing towards you lately. No more love and no more care. I'm also do not care what will happen to you if I leave you alone at home. I feels nothing......

Just give me time....

I really love and care about the person I spend my time everyday right now..I just can't let it go...

I hope this feeling will be just temporary as it is not good for me.

badakbiru: really wish to say how much I care about you and want to be with you forever...