i wish i can

I have something bothering in mind, that I can not express it in words or verbally speaking to other people. It may be normal for some other people, but not for me. Additionally, I think it is becoming worst each day. I wonder why I will face this kind of situation all the time....!!

Today I'm having lunch with my colleague. On my way back after having my lunch, I accidentally meet someone while waiting for my friend buying some stuff. I just smile at them, and they say hi to my other friends. I wonder if they notice me or not. Hopefully they notice me.

That meeting makes me wondering through out of my walking back to my office.

Am I that bad until I cannot make people feel excited when meets me..? Why I cannot make people will feel want to jumping around if suddenly they meet me..?

That is what is bothering me these days. Maybe I am not so good enough yet to them.

badakbiru : I wish I can say it....